more sighs from a lost soul

Freddie Aguilar - Mahal Na Mahal Na Mahal Kita

I dunno anymore guys.... basically... I dunno i just have no idea anymore. I dont know where my life is heading. Its like im just randomly walking a path where all i can see is a just road along the horizon. I'm lost. I need someone to find me. Or perhaps something to find me. Honeslty, what the fuck am i doing with my life? I have nothing to look forward to. Crap jobs, crap car, no gf, no social life. Why the fuck am i here?

Common ft Mary J. Blige - Come close to me

7/21/06 - 3:29AM

..::Still Alone::.. by Romy

Silently laying in my bed pondering on things
Wondering if just by Hope. Happiness it brings
Hanging on a peice of string, thinking thats all i need
Trying to calm myself, Slowly i breathe
It is you that i need, thats all i want to see
I keep asking myself. "why cant we just be...
Together... Forever"
I dream of us, starring at the stars in the night sky
I never want to tell you those words...goodbye
The dream becomes a nightmare, i am engulfed in fear
I scream in agony. "why are you not here?"
Opening my eyes, it is now you i see
Brown eyes, soft skin, smiling face, you are the key
To my heart...
We are now happy together, you and I
Our love for each, will not die
Through the thick and thins, still loveing each other
We already knew, we were made for one another
But... this is all a dream. None of it real
I wake up from the rings of my phone
In the end...I'm Still Alone...

I hope you guys liked it. Yeah i know its kinad depressing but that is my mood as of this moment. Wow, i havent made a poem in a long ass time. Maybe i should go grab my poem book now. I have a new entry...

*sigh* why do i feel like this...

Unknown artist - Now & Forever

I have no one to talk to, so i'll just type shit in this thing. I know only certain read this. Prolly don't read this anymore since i hardly update. Only update when i feel like it. I just gotta get this out of me right now. Just some gotta "vent"

Seriously not all here anymore. I've never been the same ever since working there. My chest hurts. A feeling of crying comes over me. Why? Why am i like this? -_-''. I don't even have a chance. She has a boyfriend. I am so stupid. I am retarded. I like a girl who has a boyfriend. Am i that blind to see that? I am living on high hopes thinking it might work. Putting too much effort in something that i cannot have. Too much effort in something that i know wont work. Too much effort... too much effort. People say that we look cute together. Are they just saying that to be nice? Fueling this fire i have for her to be only doused later on... I want her for my own. She makes me happy. She makes me smile. shes makes me go into my own world with her. Am i falling for her? Who knows? I really dont know.

Sorry if this post is pretty pointless but... eh i have no excuse. I feel a taer coming.. wow just wow... how can someone i dont have do this to me. just wow....