Something is wrong with me...

something is seriously wrong with me =(. Last night..i got jealous over a girl that already has a boyfriend. She didnt pay much attention to me that night and was talking to another dude. Why in the world did i get jealous? I mean i know for sure she got a boyfriend and there is nothing thats going to happen between us yet... i was jealous. Something is terribly wrong with that. I'm thinking its just my mentallity or more rather my "hopes" that maybe that we'll hook up. Man, jealous and pissed last night.. Mixed emotions. They were together the whole daym night and she would come by to give small talk with me but that fucking dude would always come by and they'd talk. Is this her small pity talks? Bcause shes thinking "oh romy is left out" or she truely genuine in trying to talk with me. I dont know i just couldnt handle it so i left for a good 30 minutes and they didn't notice i was gone. fucked up eh? bleh, its really stupid to get jealous over this huh? But i felt hella bad last night. i just left saying a very heartless bye. i think im planning on just giving her a note tomorrow and putting it with a brownies..becuz brownies are good. I don't know..i thik im sprung over her... i should get out while i can i think, but i can't. She's like... perfect. Cute, funny, caring, works hard. Love the smile, shorter than me. c'mon now. and i like being around her! Yet i despise the fact that she has a boyfriend. and it doesn't help too when they have been dating quite a while now. Seriously need, yes need people, to get a girlfriend. I just miss it.. i miss being..needed and held...