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This is just a test. Finally claimed access to my toondragon blogger. Going to try gain access to my xanga next :)

I dont get it

I seriously dont... fucking get it... Why time after time, i always end up liking a girl that already has a boyfriend? Does Life love to mock me? It makes no sense!

i wanna be your best friend...
i wanna be your boyfriend...
i wanna be with you...
i wanna love you...
i want you...
i need...
you...

Random crap O_o

I was once told that

"Romy, you're gonna grow up to do big things"

then i found out it sounds like a movie line.

I was once told that

"You keep this up, you won't get anywhere"

then i found out that it sounded like a movie line.

I was once told that

"you're really funny"

Then i found out she might be true.

I was once told that

"I really like you"

Then i found out that im a chicken shit

I was once told that

"I still like you, but im with someone"

Then i found out that my heart can be broken

This isn't getting anywhere? ROFL.

I was once told

"i loved you and i still do, but i cant see you that way"

Then i found out my heart can die but i still live

I was once told

"pigs cant fly"

Then i brought a pig on the plane

WHAT UP SUKKA YEAH I PROVED YOU WRONG WHAT WHAT WHAT

more sighs from a lost soul

Freddie Aguilar - Mahal Na Mahal Na Mahal Kita

I dunno anymore guys.... basically... I dunno i just have no idea anymore. I dont know where my life is heading. Its like im just randomly walking a path where all i can see is a just road along the horizon. I'm lost. I need someone to find me. Or perhaps something to find me. Honeslty, what the fuck am i doing with my life? I have nothing to look forward to. Crap jobs, crap car, no gf, no social life. Why the fuck am i here?

Common ft Mary J. Blige - Come close to me

7/21/06 - 3:29AM

..::Still Alone::.. by Romy

Silently laying in my bed pondering on things
Wondering if just by Hope. Happiness it brings
Hanging on a peice of string, thinking thats all i need
Trying to calm myself, Slowly i breathe
It is you that i need, thats all i want to see
I keep asking myself. "why cant we just be...
Together... Forever"
I dream of us, starring at the stars in the night sky
I never want to tell you those words...goodbye
The dream becomes a nightmare, i am engulfed in fear
I scream in agony. "why are you not here?"
Opening my eyes, it is now you i see
Brown eyes, soft skin, smiling face, you are the key
To my heart...
We are now happy together, you and I
Our love for each, will not die
Through the thick and thins, still loveing each other
We already knew, we were made for one another
But... this is all a dream. None of it real
I wake up from the rings of my phone
In the end...I'm Still Alone...

I hope you guys liked it. Yeah i know its kinad depressing but that is my mood as of this moment. Wow, i havent made a poem in a long ass time. Maybe i should go grab my poem book now. I have a new entry...

*sigh* why do i feel like this...

Unknown artist - Now & Forever

I have no one to talk to, so i'll just type shit in this thing. I know only certain read this. Prolly don't read this anymore since i hardly update. Only update when i feel like it. I just gotta get this out of me right now. Just some gotta "vent"

Seriously not all here anymore. I've never been the same ever since working there. My chest hurts. A feeling of crying comes over me. Why? Why am i like this? -_-''. I don't even have a chance. She has a boyfriend. I am so stupid. I am retarded. I like a girl who has a boyfriend. Am i that blind to see that? I am living on high hopes thinking it might work. Putting too much effort in something that i cannot have. Too much effort in something that i know wont work. Too much effort... too much effort. People say that we look cute together. Are they just saying that to be nice? Fueling this fire i have for her to be only doused later on... I want her for my own. She makes me happy. She makes me smile. shes makes me go into my own world with her. Am i falling for her? Who knows? I really dont know.

Sorry if this post is pretty pointless but... eh i have no excuse. I feel a taer coming.. wow just wow... how can someone i dont have do this to me. just wow....

Random Stuff

So like yeah, i havent updated this thing in a long time. I always wondered why not, when sometimes i do have time.

Listening to : Avant - Get Away

Wow, havent heard this song in a long time and always had this song on my playlist. now its playing and it reminds me of so many things right now. And what the hell my space bar is acting up. workyoudaymspacebar. K now i think its working now, but that song man..... Its a regret song and i've regretted on somethings in my life. For now, I got something good but can't really act upon it yet... hopefully. This might be the person. For sure i think i do believe it. *sigh* *pondering panda* I wanna... see her again..

Listening to : Fort Minor - Where'd Yah Go

ahhh i love this song. WHere'd you go? I missed you so. Hehehe this is my ringtone on my nextel. hmmm, so good this song hahaha. Yeah thats all i can say about it. Where'd you go i missed you so feels its been forever since you've been gone. Please come back home..

Listening to : Nickelback - Photograph

Speaking of which i took new pictures at fun factory. those sticky pictures, hehe its cute. Took ALOT of pictures with shayna, haha thas what we always do. You should see my locker at my fun factory job. All pictures of me n shayna and more of shayna by herself. haha. I got some picture with roxanne too. Man me n rox dont know how to take pictures or rather design them. haha its pretty funny. one of the picture theres a pile of poop by my nose @_@, hahahaha. it totally matches and what shes doing. We call ourseleves the badluck duo becuz shiet always goes down when we work together. hahaha but we both agree even tho crap breaks and stuff we have the most fun while working together *big smiles* ^_^ <- rox does that, lol

Listening to : Kermit the Frog - Rainbow Connection

hahaha i got this song from this one girl on myspace. Its so cute so i decided to download it. Hmm lets all make a connection! lets all make a RAINBOW connection. I wonder if this was supposed to be about being gay. then again kermit isn't gay, lol

Listening to : Rosette - Crushed

hmmm, got it from derek. hahahahahaha this so says stuff about me n someone. *smirks* heheheheheh ^_^ so giddy.. =D

Listening to : Too Short - Blow the Whistle

Is this song about Bj's? O_o thats what i first thought when i heard him saying blow the whistle.

Listening to : Jack Johnson - Breakdown

This song reminds me of Sariling Gawa. The filipino group i work with. I miss them. This past year at SG i did support so i stayed up in the middle of the night watching the camp making sure the kids are asleep and also so keep them safe, hehe

Listening to : T-Pain - Stripper remix

I love R. Kelly's part haha even tho he did the shit he did he still good with the songs. I must be the man to fall in love with that... ass... hahahah =D. so good this song. if you haven't heard it go DOWNLOAD IT DAMNATIOn.

okay wel i think thats it, rofl laters

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hey i feel somewhat better now >_>